Verse 1 I'm the one they send a pill just to keep my temper chill Frustration fluctuating, they suggesting Seroquel Dependent on incessant thrills, measured by my length of will If they feeling threatened I just get them to send the bill My stupid brain it won't stop, refuse to take that Zoloft It used to make so lost, renew the pain and go off Reflection of a primate, depressing is my mind state, Regret is set on my face, no effect pretend that I'm great, Palmful of diazepam, harmful to the average man If I've lost my marbles can we carpool to the savage land? Startled by my action plan, charcoal in my damaged hands, This ain't pa** the parcel but can you pa** me back a gram? Mister lacking dopamine, sick of having no esteem Kicking back and smoking weed, this friggin daggers poking me Brains the biggest burden ever, patiently we work together, At the point of breaking, am I making a diversion? Never! Chorus If I can't get sober like you think I can, I'll jump in front of a moving van I say sorry for apologizing, and you'll f** me off, yeah you'll f** me off Verse 2 A symptom of the former kid I've that I've been inside Triggered by the trauma Mystified, distance eyes flicker by the corner, Hit the lights Switching sides till I'm rigamortis, It's a vice, sniffing lines just to feel normal Till I fit in the box that they want me to But it has been locked don't know what to do So I'm hitting the pot till I'm not with you I know I can stop if I'm wanting to Found my sense of calm till the charm wore off What an epic farce, get your arms sawn off Life is such a task, better start yours off Picking them apart just to mark your spot Chorus If I can't get sober like you think I can, I'll jump in front of a moving van I say sorry for apologizing but you'll f** me off, yeah you'll f** me off And if it's still not over by the time you're gone How will I know if I went wrong? This habit is lobotomizing But I feel so shattered when I'm not in the state of a dream! Bridge Just internalize it till the urge is turning violent x8 (ooowh) Chorus 2 If I can't get sober like you think I can, I'll jump in front of a moving van I'm not sorry for apologizing but you'll f** me off, yeah you'll f** me off And if it's still not over by the time you're gone How will I know if I went wrong? This habit is lobotomizing But I feel so shattered when I'm not in the state of a dream!