RuMeal - Far in the Distance lyrics

[Verse 1: RuMeal] I'm gripping the grain, thinking & driving while switching lanes I don't wanna live in vain for decisions I've made through pain Going through something's in life were p**y & henny will make it feel alright Things I've had before but never really felt this nice Friends & relatives tell you how much you're not same Now I'm facing the mirror just hope I don't see years of pain Everything that I had once feared is everything I became Got me feeling ashamed to live on while bearing my father's name But I'm a get it, I promise I'll get it I guarantee you'll be proud once all my days are finished & everyday I wake up I view as a new beginning If you go for it you'll get it that's something I'm apprehending Aiming for my dreams planning my point of attack Bang, bang, I just hope opportunity shoots back Formal on instrumentals but promise I never slack In my train of thoughts, tryna get my life on track [Hook: Neil] Cause it's so hard Living to fill a dream, pursue this by any means My mental states that I'm a king It's not far Illusions of finer things, & gifted the grander scheme I'm just saying who we are, it's so hard & though we're not perfect, the pain so worth it But it's not far, it's not far Cause it's not far in the distance [Verse 2: RuMeal] & I'm observing life as I'm an*lyzing my current state Tired of living in struggle I need to move of my current state The sky's the limit I'm tryna reach past the limitations Making new connections while keeping all my affiliations I'm working hard on a path to become a world star While others satisfied with their comments & views from worldstar I can't lie I want money, cars, & video vixens But can't let the vices get in the way of all my ambitions I'm superstitious in beliefs my dreams are on the way There's no more that I need to say I'm looking forward to better days Cause I don't wanna be stuck in my own world Were I'm distracted by beautiful women in diamonds & pearls Plus life's a beautiful thing until it gets wasted Having you contemplating change because it's hard for you to face it I'm telling you my wrongs that took a while for me to indicate I see the bigger picture, now I hope this helps you illustrate [Hook:Neil] [Verse: Head Band] Right out the gate tell you like this Never would I ever think my life would take a right off the righteous Now my nights filled with alcohol & nitrous Shamed to admit, how in the hell did I invite this Demon in to my blood, screaming in to my soul Singing about it even makes me cold, sh** you ain't know But there's gotta be something on the other side The only thing I have is my love, good vibes & my pride Great family, always keep the tetrahydrocannabi No plan for me, the only medication that can handle me So I light my spliff each night & practice my peace right Keeping the energy flow, backing attention off & letting me go Better than ever before, my third eye's open for my indigo That's why I'm spreading my life for the fallen I'm spreading my light for the falling [Hook: Neil]