Rude Max - Nightmare On Orange Street lyrics

[intro] I'm not f**ed up, (no I'm not) I'm not insane, demented, disturbed, or satanic (nope) I just wanna make ya'll love me or panic, (haha) So do you love me?? (i f**ing hate you) [verse 1] The camel clutch, I'm holding on this nightmare My life s**s, and everything is unfair I see happy people, i wish was dead I crawled out of bed, injected venom to my head Smoked a fat bowl, laced it up, till it spread Then popped an adrenal, and washed it down with some bread I sat there in the mirror with my eyes red And i started feeling weird, i reached for out my meds But it was too late, and i was super baked I had to graduate, but i was feeling really fake More like a headache, cancer in my brain Suicidal thoughts makes my dad say I'm insane Choke hold now, pinned down, can't move I hear my mom say come on now choke him with two What do i do, they always scream and slap me She said i s**ed and my music sounded crappy [hook] Yo Can you feel it?? i feel it Or do you fear it?? yeah i fear it Do you love me?? i love you man Or do you hate me?? i f**ing hate you [verse 2] She said sorry, and drove me to the hospital I couldn't leave, so i started getting hostile I guess I'm crazy, i don't feel lost at all But I'm sorry for my self i can't escape these f**ing walls The time's slow but all these bad days went fasts In my group i was shunned and deemed the outcast My only friend is a girl named hope But her name was a fool, she was addicted to dope She was a fiend for d**, and even stole pills And traded me for me candy, so we could both chill I had to write a lot about who i really was So i found myself fast, but i couldn't hide my buzz So i was locked in a room all padded and white I'm an emotional f**, with a dream of a knife And every single night, i was dead like chris palko Hanging in that closet with them lithium altos [hook] Yo Can you feel it?? i feel it Or do you fear it?? yeah i fear it Do you love me?? i love you man Or do you hate me?? i f**ing hate you