Rubyhorse - The First of the Year lyrics

Just a year away And nothing stays the same But the rain and the gray you wake up to And you try In the only way you know to cover it up Words give it all away When there's nothing to say I know it's hard To let it all go Outgrow the colors, the shades Some, they might say I'm raining on my own parade The first holiday And I don't want to stay And I don't know where I'm going home to It's all change And I'm still insane I'm walking on water in shoes that can't stop the rain Going under again I know it's hard To let it all go Outgrow the colors, the shades Some, they might say I'm raining on my own parade But I'm just a kid Trying to unchange all the hits and the misses I can't explain, I thought that I could All kinds of angels with my blood to spill From the first of the year