Ruby Throat - All I Have Left Of You lyrics

My law insists The door is open to reflect the precise moment There is no mistake Shed this skin It is already buried But you carry the shadow Bury this skin You'll carry Someone so far Show them You are free They are called out in remnant The spirit open The door open You must walk through This is for you Everything is done You are most beloved And my way is made safe You need never doubt For I am my own I will always keep you safe I want this pain It's all I have left of you A darkened room I commune with you Yes, I have to have this pain No need to recover Or replace with another Yes, I want this pain I want this pain Shocking in its magnitude What you dared put me through Still I have to have this pain I did not survive without it As you threatened, kicked, clouted Yes, I have to have this pain Yes, I have to have this pain Not as a talisman, not as a reminder But as a scored edge against anything kinder Lest I lose my footing Lest the ground gives way Lest I find that tiny bird Who gave in and flew away Yes, I have to have this pain Yes, I have to have this pain I have to have this pain Yes, I have to have this pain Can you come and get me? Come quickly, don't forget me There's blood on the floor But not any more Please come and get me Please come and get me