Ross Allen - Speculum lyrics

[Verse 1: Ross Allen] 17 looking for another way out Cus' I cannot settle for a damn day job 9 to 5 ain't my style I'd rather f**ing die I used to ball but now I opened my third eye Back in the day Me and my n***a had dreams of College & NBA Everyday afterschool we would play and just play That was the life back then Some would say that I had even more potential than him Maybe not [Verse 2: Ross Allen] Then high school came We went to private school to ball We both was underrated and too small for guards I knew I didn't have what it takes to be a dog He was working hard And I was just failing & barely saw him at all He spent hours in the gym while I was barely pa**ing gym And he was on the Junior Varsity while I was always tardy Man so times that they had to suspend me And I look at him now he on ESPN I'm so glad that he ain't f** up just like I did And now his momma don't gotta pay for college I wish I could go back & take it serious And if I could then you wouldn't be hearing this I gave that up for what? All the girls i got? Maybe I need a mirror to see the guy I despise And make him give me a reason why I don't k** him tonight Ohhh lord please don't let me ruin my life Take a look at my spectacle Life is like a speculum Harder than a Prius trying to take on the Decepticons I just like to be alone more than anyone you know Sorry I'm an introvert Sorry I don't socialize Sorry I don't give a f** Sorry I don't like to cry Sorry I been weird as f** Sorry I been getting high