Rorschach Test - Monster lyrics

I'd like to say I'm sorry For all your new-found pain My life becomes such an unmanageable mess But still I manage to drive everyone that loves me insane I am monster I am monster I looked to you for answers You said to look inside But all I found there was the foetus of my inner child Everything beautiful about me never lived before it died I am monster I am monster I am monster I am I could have been so special Just like the other me But "somehow" almost has become my middle name I am now everything I promised you I'd never be I am monster I am monster I am monster I am monster