Roland Oliver - Push** (Live) lyrics

[Maynard's monologue] [We've been... we've been trying something... a little different this tour. We've been looking at... one of our songs... from a different angle... under a different light... so we can hopefully kind of... see it almost for the first time. We'd like to try that for you tonight, is that OK? We're gonna need your help though. We need your help, and your permission. So we need you to find a comfortable space, that's not only comfortable, but vulnerable, and to just shut your eyes and go there, and we'll meet you on the other side] I saw the gap again today While you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away And you as well, my dear And you as well, my dear Pushed you away, my dear Pushed you away Pushed you away Pushed you away, my dear I will choke until I swallow Choke this infant here before me What are you but my reflection? Who am I to judge or strike you down? Who am I to judge or strike you down? But you're pushing, and I'm shoving you And you're pushing me, and I'm shoving you Rest your trigger on my finger Bang my head upon the fault line You'd better take care not to make me enter If I do we both may disappear If I do we both may disappear But you're pushing, and I'm shoving you And you're pushing me, and I'm shoving you You still love me, you still love me You still love me, you still love me You're pushing, and we're shoving And we're pushing, and I'm shoving And we're still love me, you still love me You still love me, you still love me You're pushing, and we're shoving And I'm pushing, and you're shoving And I'm slipping back into The gap again I feel alive when you touch me I feel alive when you hold me Down Slipping back into Slipping back into I am somewhere I don't wanna be, again Put me somewhere I don't wanna be Push me somewhere I don't wanna be Seeing someplace I don't wanna see Never wanna see that place again I saw the gap again today While you were begging me to stay Managed to push myself away And you as well, my dear If when I say I might fade like a sigh if I stay You minimize my movement anyway I must persuade you another way Pushing and shoving And pushing and shoving And pushing me There's no love in that Staring down the hole again Hands are on my back again Survival is my only friend Terrified of what may come Remember I'll always love you As I claw your f**ing throat away It will end no other way It will end no other way