Riz MC - Double Lives lyrics

CHORUS I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby Can I build a bridge inside I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby So I live a double life VERSE 1 Since we were small We been taught A certain way to be is law It's deep seated like jeans that fall My son, our people came to these shores With nothing, honour is all we brought So keep your culture, keep the fort Some last of the mohicans talk Since we felt like outsiders this helped define us And we made it our choice But now I'm just confused Half mohican Half cowboy Cos life slips, ideas mix, is it best of both Or two lies I live At home take comfort in culture, religion When I'm out then I flout it f**ing and pillin' Live a double life Keep sh** hidden Never sh**ting on my own doorstep like a pigeon Drink smoke d** and women all forbidden So what? wait up f your ethnic it's different Get caught, the family lose face Mum has a heart attack her heart breaks Dad disowns you, sorry is too late Girls get married off or turn up in a suitcase But even with no threat, respect Means you'd rather lie than cause upset They taste boots racist abuse, slave laboured until they're great to raise you So keep hiding, keep Jekyll on the low How long will it last? I don't know Drink in my hand with my girl on the phone Anything you wanna tell me son? NO CHORUS I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby Can I build a bridge inside I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby So I live a double life VERSE 2 Growin' up was all about chewing gum and saying how You was at your mates when you were going out Eye drops for redeye, copper coins in your mouth, hide caller ID when you call a girl's house By this age it's bait the whole family blatantly knows your game the truths out Drugs and johnnies in your trunks and pocket Been found with a gold heart locket no doubt They know what you do But its still all a taboo So everyone pretends it's like the Truman show, who are you? Don't recognise your own face in the mirror feel so detached What do you expect when your life's so slashed down the middle you're living like a psychopath So you can either keep on your sheepskin Or come out as a wolf but your shepherds will be eaten That's why the youth got nobody to lead them Either going jail or grow a beard start preaching Is the way I was raised what I believe in Never be at peace til I know who I'm pleasing It all gets deep when your demons don't let you sleep and your girl is a heathen But that's a whole other tune By the next album I'll decide what to do Slippin', sipping on a mixed up brew Yea we like the taste but we spit some too SO I spit this for the m**ms and Jews Christians, Sikh, Jains the Buddhists and Hindus Confused, stuck between old and new? You're probably gonna f** up your own kids too CHORUS I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby Can I build a bridge inside I don't know which way to go It's a path that I can't find I'm just tryina be me baby So I live a double life