Rittz - Sick of Suffering lyrics

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (wrong) I wish that you could save me but I may be far too gone Put me out my misery ( I REALLY DID IT THIS TIME!) (I fu*kED MY LIFE UP SO MUCH I LOST EVERYTHING) (GOD, WHY CAN’T I JUST DIE?) (DO YOU LIKE TO SEE MY SUFFER?) (ARE YOU ENTERTAINED?) Please forgive me, I don’t mean it, lord But I don’t want to cry myself to sleep again I FEEL LIKE IF I DIE FOR REAL I’M SCARED I’VE NEVER FELT THIS WAY BUT THINKING WHAT IS LIFE IF I CAN’T BE WITH (?) I know that I earned this, but just when I get to learn from what I did? It’s never hurt this much, I deserve it, but when DOES IT END? I DON’T GOT NO MONEY IN THE BANK! I DON’T FEEL LIKE TALKIN’ TO MY FRIENDS! WAS AN ALCOHOLIC, IN RECOVERY I’M TRYIN’ TO GET (?) GOD, I’M SO ASHAMED I’M OUT OF MEDICATION, I’M A WRECK! BITTER SEPARATION WAS ENFORCED WANNA TELL MY LADY THAT I LOVE HER BUT I CAN’T, SHE DON’T LOVE ME ANYMORE (?) S.O.S! I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (wrong) I wish that you could save me but I may be far too gone Put me out my misеry, I’m sick of suffering Feel like evеryone I love has had enough of me Put me out my misery, sick of suffering I’m ashamed cuz who I am ain’t who I want to be Someone come for me Lay me somewhere comfortably to rest What the fu*k you people want? IF I GET ONE MORE TEXT I SWEAR I’LL BREAK MY fu*kIN’ PHONE I’M TOO GROWN FOR SOME OF MY FRIENDS THEY DON’T KNOW I BEEN ONLINE ALL DAY TRYING TO CONVINCE MY FANS THAT I LIKE RAP YOUR FAVORITE RAPPER su*kS fu*k WHAT YOUR OPINION IS I THINK YOU GET IT’S ALL ABOUT MONEY I DON’T GOT A sh*t TO GIVE THE INTERNET RUINED MY LIFE WANNA WRITE SONGS, I TYPE MY THOUGHTS YOU KNOW HOW MANY NIGHTS I FOUGHT WITH THE WIFE SHE WISH I NEVER QUIT MY fu*kING JOB I know that I earned this, but just when I get to learn from what I did? It’s never hurt this much, I deserve it, but when DOES IT END?