Rite Hook - I've Died Before lyrics

[Verse 1: Rite Hook] I wanna eighty , who said that, my brain maybe But it felt like another personality, yellin' at me Am I crazy cause I seen some sh** Ponderin' the ultimate, thoughts in a evil grip Kick the routine on an even scale Cause if I'm sick I'll f** you up for a piece of a pill Started off sweet, now it's like I'm needing to steal Never wanted to do it but better believe I will I would wake up like [?] Strike one now I gotta call up that dude on you Said I wanted one but I had the cash [?] That's strike two, f** strike three I'm tryin' to shoot a few Hah now my only option is to pull off it and hopefully get a gold watch and bunch of necklaces And if I don't, I robbing Flacco for a whole bundle of dope and poppin' skin [Hook] The world's so different from me, I can feel a Change comin' over me, I don't feel the same When I've tried before Still have a tough time looking in the mirror Still sweatin' like a pig, I can feel the flame It's like I've died before [Verse 2: Madchild] I'm a cheater, a liar, a zombie, a monster Droolin' on my couch, watchin' flicks barely conscious Cigarette burns on my clothes, on my boxers Drop seven grand on a bag full of Oxys Touched by an angel Then you wake up depressed on a cold planet Hidin' in the corner, I was laughin' at myself I'm a one weight, third cla** pa**enger to hell Yeah I'm self destructive, I'm castin' up a spell Lying ba*tard, mentally a disaster you can tell Broken teeth, overweight, and my lips are purple Madchild, I am stuck in this vicious circle Those aren't no damn mashed potatoes aight Another f**in' day that I have stayed up all night Strippers and coke, I got dudes who will murder for me Now I feel like a bottom feeder stuck in purgatory [Hook] [Verse 3: Rite Hook] I'm stuck in rut with no luck Left with myself in a world with no trust And I'll never get it back, that's what it seems like Sleepin' in the shelter, least it ain't the street lettin' sleet pelt ya Please help yourself, that's what they're sayin' to me Screamin' it, losin' what you have, I'm achievin' it My hearts barely beating in the year that I'm breathin' [?] What's the definition of relief, I tell ya A five minute rush but it don't last forever Yah now you feel better but you'll never get ahead of what you're runnin' from Just piles up right front of him Someone's gotta play the game and bat 400 At least that's what I think, I'm really buggin' Getting thrown out before I get to first base What's it gonna take to get out of the rat race [Hook X2]