Rikio - Last Run lyrics

[Intro] Yeah, n***a what time is it Like four in the f**ing morning? You damn right, yeah [Verse] At 18 I thought that I had mapped out our live f**ing b**hes touching riches all from penning the rhymes I'm 25, and f** it I won't tell you no lies We blow the bank on random nights but I'm still trying to survive That's why I push start this Benz time to take me a ride I'm losing drive, I cruise my city just to catch me a vibe It's no surprise I'll take this right on Bushwick, bumping Future new sh** Gettin stares from this b**h who probably got some loose lips Truth is, I was diagnosed with Lupus on my twenty-first birthday I brought it in the worst way It's ironic that's a night you not supposed to forget But where's the party, ain't I supposed to be lit Instead I'm in this hospital bed, being pumped with these meds Getting questioned like they come from the feds And as I hold my momma's hand, she still tryna understand How her perfect baby boy end up in this new position I wish that you would listen, I'm not the perfect Christian And maybe this is karma for all my awful decisions Depression starts to set in as them days road past I know them nurses heard them curses as I broke that gla** I wrote some verse, I was nervous, I embrace my past And now I guess the only question, is ya boy gonna last? And that's my biggest fear My family hearing from a doctor he's no longer here But f** that I'm a rider If this my last run, grab the cherry Gatorade Let them know I'm not afraid, I'ma middle finger Satan f** a n***a hatin' I'll run until my last breath or feel my ankles breakin' Even the I'll crawl I swear to God we'll ball all before you get the call I'm holding up this wall, but who gon' be here if I fall f**, somehow I just won't quit I been through too much sh**, this world can s** my dick They show me pictures of my ex and I'm like f** that b**h Cause we supposed to ride or die so when the f** that switch You was ghost when I needed you most I thought about this line back seat in a Rolls I thought about that time you had came to a show Even though I was the opening act, you had my back And you was there for me Front row with all your friends, yeah you cheered for me You brought that bottle we got showed ya here for me It was real then, now I got a bunch of broads that fill in I'm pretty sure that you'll say I'm the villain Won't stunt it though, I'm chillin' It's just different perspectives I was young and I was dumb, yeah when we met I was reckless I guess it's time I swallowed pride, you know it's hard to admit this But I'm sorry for it all and that's with God as my witness I was supposed to share this life with you I was cool I wasn't tripping off no fight or two I swear that hatred came from out the blue So did that text that said that we were through That's why I thank the Lord I got the crew When I was stuck they always been the glue, so true They been some riders damn near down since diapers Their loyalty been priceless since we rolled them blunts in cyphers And now we wild as ISIS, I'm caught up in this crisis I'm wildin' till I'm touching gold and n***as call me Midas I swear bro it's a virus, and you don't feel it once you in the mix I swear, I swear this hood stole all our innocence My homies feel the same and trust it's not coincidence We don't want no nine to five, n***a f** your benefits What my n***a probably pack in his trunk In a week he'll make about what you made in a month So what's your move, how you weigh these options You wanna be the overlooked or be that n***a poppin' I always felt I played the hand in all this sh** that we do It's certain parts to this story that I wish wasn't true My best friend chose to trap, I ain't know how to react He chose that lifestyle all so I can make it off rap Now he cautious only taking back streets Using signals, driving slow just so he don't attract heat I'm sitting pa**enger, the speakers leaking Reasonable Doubt I'm finally getting what these bars is about That's why we out here tryna get it He double parks and goes and handles business A lifetime consequence that took a couple minutes Yeah he in it, and only falling deeper Until I make a profit off what's coming through your speakers No words could ever reach us, but sh** we here together Ignoring our reality as if that's any better But f** it, it's whatever, I never saw you as a friend You proved it's love time and time again We was them boys and now we grew to men I swear to God we riding till the end I'm only here cause you believe in me repeatedly I don't know what you seen in me You got my word I'll get you out that scenery Recording facts while I'm painting these pictures At the heart we just some loyal wild Brooklyn a** n***as I'm bettin they'll still question why I want it so bad So let's talk about the lack of influence from my dad Only called on birthdays, I wasn't seeing him often Now if I wanna hear from him I gotta talk to his coffin This marathon get exhausting, but for years I been all in You only start to hear it ring when you feel it's your callin' So why the f** was I stallin' by now we should've been ballin' At what point do it all fall in I hate this sh** that I'm recallin d**h be plaguing my mind, I just lost my n***a Who left his daughter behind, I swear it wasn't his time I'm at your funeral and can't believe it's true Your family hung that picture up of me, Speez and you I saw it and fought it and caught this pain in my chest Heart beating fast, coughing catching my breath, can't let them see I'm a mess This how I hold back the tears, brody I wish you was here I still remember you saying in rap I'm top of the tier How could I forget, I'm laughing at myself, how'd I think I'd ever quit A problem I'ma fix cause I ain't drop no sh** in three years Still getting tweets from the fans, oh yeah they still here I still ain't seek a feature from these people that I call peers I'm bound to die a legend, that's a point I want to make clear Nike can check it, I finally accept it I'm back with my best sh** n***a respect it, neglect it, I'm pushing it forward I'm still amazed I get this praise but I'm still finding it awkward How they found me off the internet, related and caught it When I release this music bloggers gonna review and report it And why the loyal a** fans went to iTunes and bought it I swear I'm humbled, hands on the Bible that's how I met Ito Exchanged some messages then made our run for the title Since day one he been f**ing with me He still would send me heat and he was signed to FV Kept it G and he my n***a for that, that's why it's bigger than rap That's why this dream is still alive I know I owe him some plaques, facts These was just some clips from my movie This that alternate ending where n***as thought that they knew me It's why no matter what I'll always feel I'm the one And this is why I left it all here, if this my last run If this my last run If this my last run If this my last run