Rigoni-Schoenherz - Victor's Song For Himself lyrics

I can't stand it anymore I can't stand it anymore. My life is filled with days asking the future and the past for the today. What can I do alone without myself depending on a chance. The sky is deep where are my wings? I can't stand it anymore I can't stand it anymore. The circus is my world and it's a fact it's not a children's paradise to me it's hell. What can I do alone even David who can sing a song can not believe in this world anymore each night he dies a little more in applause. I can't stand it anymore the dead look of the captured lions my ma who gets more silent each day the hackneyed jokes of my father the admiring cheers for the breakneck leap the resounding laughter at the clowns the boundless patience of the dwarfs the silly pride of the flying men all the morbid thoughts of the head of the circus. Then there's that one happy day when ev'rything seems to be clear and forever. And I am trying to hold it tight with all my strength I try to hold it tight but it wastes away just like a dream. I can't stand it anymore I can't stand it anymore.