Ricky Hil - Try To Understand lyrics

[Intro] Nostra Avenue, yeah Ricky Hil, C.T It's nothin' new [Verse 2] Everybody's pushing me in a new direction The problem is, I can't seem to make a connection Yea, anything you say that I need to do So why are you testing me? (Why are you pushing me?) I make my own decisions The way that I'm living is up to me I don't wanna follow what you call sincerely I don't need to be anything that I don't wanna be And they gon' make me try to be somebody else That's impossible to me I made my own name, I stayed myself Sounds logical to me See, I ain't gonna walk away from this I ain't gonna talk, you worryin' 'bout the things I miss I hope I let you know by the time you leave How much that you mean, mean to me I don't wanna leave, but I owe you Remembering me, remembering me I know that dedication is always gonna get the best of me All that medication brought the worst out of me I'm hoping that you know everything I'm telling you today I hope you hear my name in the back of your head Listen to me on days you wish you were dead I know that it gets hard to understand But sometimes it's easier to not have a plan than try to understand [Mashup] [Outro] It's goin' down, it's goin' down Gonna be here, gonna be here