Ri¢h - Forever In My Mind lyrics

[Verse 1: Ri¢h] Why the f** do I keep thinking you could save me I'm f**ed up in the head, I already know I'm crazy Family gives me sh**, cuz they just think I'm lazy No one's saying nothing new, that's why nothing faze me I'm learning nothing new, life ceases to amaze me More fascinated with my d**h, I think about it daily And when I finally do it, know it wasn't very hasty Cuz my home is 6 feet under, I've been welcomed in by Hades Looking up at the night, loner stargazing By myself, with my thoughts, why I stay blazing Thinking about the past, man those really were the days then Parties with my friends, felt like life was just the greatest Fast forward to the present, feels like now the party's vacant In my mind I know that there's no place for my displacement I just wanna know why I feel so goddamn forsaken Am I not worth much, should I sell my soul to Satan? Would he even take me in, a pathetic f**ing vagrant? Or am I doomed to limbo, with my life beyond salvation? Took an eighth of shrooms, and I had a revelation I'm my only problem, cuz I've lost all motivation Suicidal temptations, wonder when I'll cave in Should probably leave a note cuz they'll wonder why I gave in Keep running from my problems, but there isn't a safe haven And there's no end in sight for my depression, quote the raven Nevermore Nevermore Nevermore Standing on the sands of Night's Plutonian Shore Had my chance but I f**ed it up before Not another single night, quote the raven Nevermore Yet you're still always on my mind, quote my raving Forevermore Forever in my mind, quote my raving Forevermore [Verse 2: Ri¢h] You're forever in my mind All the f**ing time I just don't know why Can't fight, no matter what I try I just wanna die Please take me while I lie In the middle of the night I don't wanna see the light Unless it's at the end of the tunnel In a perfect world, all we'd ever do is cuddle But this is real life, you and I are not a couple And all the troubles and the struggles Bury me underneath all of the rubble, no-- Time for my sh**, everybody brought a shovel No time to hear me out, think I'd rather stay muzzled Confused about this life, it's one hell of a puzzle Keep joking 'bout my d**h, don't know if it's very subtle Can't talk sense to me, seems like all I've got's rebu*tals That's why I don't get help, frustratin' til you give up My friends all probably wanna stage an intervention Feel bad when I avoid em, but I just can't f**ing face em So I Stay hidden away Yeah I got a little problem But that's for another day Cuz at night, in my dreams, all I ever see is your face And it's just you and I In some faraway place I think about your voice and it's like a lullaby It's when I wake up, that's the most I wanna die The only better dreams I have are where I take my life Cuz that's all I really want, not this bull where you're my wife Cuz we're not and we'll never be I can't get that through my head Bullet leading me (Gun co*k) Sorry, that's selfish Should've kept that to me Those are just the thoughts I have Between me and this tree See, there's no process to my thoughts, I'm just crazy (for) Your name would fit right here But I've been thinking lately That I shouldn't call you out Cuz this sh** is way too heavy Yet I can't help but wonder if maybe, just maybe [Outro: Ri¢h] Like maybe if I would've done just one thing right Just one thing right (Just one thing right) Royally f**ed up our night, I must apologize No king, a jester kept hitting your eye Though it hurt me the most cuz you were center of mine Now everytime I think of you That night comes right back to mind Wasn't no surprise when you left me with goodbye Never got you your gift, I'm all talk, rap sh**, but if I had one wish upon the stars tonight Mr Clean Magic Erase that night