Rhyme Asylum - Holding on lyrics

[Verse 1: Possessed] Tears appear as I'm alone in the dark Haunted by suicidal thoughts and all of the ghosts from the past Heart broken in half, I'm internally bleeding Searching for reasons why my angel turned into a demon Soul mates is a myth, there's more chances for a blizzard of identical snowflakes to exist Hold blades to my wrists Separate soul from my flesh, sick of trying to cope with the stress and showing regrets So-called friends posing a threat Cut the cancer out ya circle before you're pushed over the edge I take steps closer to d**h Had a head-on collision with depression and was left as an emotional wreck Try step in my shoes, walking through a wilderness Of endless winter, weather reflecting my mood These are just confessions of truth, expected to lose So I watch the world with a negative view I'm a dead man walking, spirit dragging my carca** Wish I shared the same fate as Natasha and Margret I don't pray, cos God isn't listening My father forgets his sorrow, swallowing bottled oblivion No model civilians in these turbulent times Not afraid of d**h, I'm afraid of the journey of life And my words to the wise; Stand strong, and as long as fire burns in my eyes I'm determined to fight [Hookx2] Most of the time it seems life's going wrong We feel like outcast and we don't belong We need to vent that's why we wrote this song I hope I'm strong enough to keep holding on [Verse 2 : Skirmish] I've been searching blindly to find myself For many times I felt like my life was hell I even cried for help, I'm down everyday And now very afraid from how memories fade I refuse to live in poverty, but feel guilt For wanting an easy way out and win the lottery Trying to drown the pain, but I'm sinking so deep Wanting things I can't have and having things I don't need I'm lonely at times, and I'm needing some luck Developed thick skin from receiving tough love Some people are blessed with better lives, I zone out With no sound when I rest my head at night Hoping for better dreams, but I'm so stressed waking up in cold sweats when I attempt to sleep We live in war and rest in peace Using hope as a shield when swinging swords against the Beast Wonder if I got a tragic life ahead of me Cause on my roads to riches, traffic lights are never green My imagination is restricted by a migraine When I try paint the perfect picture in my mind frame Dreading how times change Friends using d** and alcohol as anaesthetics for life's pain In the back of my mind, wanting to reach back To ‘03 and recapture all my happiest times [Hook] Most of the time it seems life's going wrong We feel like outcast and we don't belong We need to vent that's why we wrote this song I hope I'm strong enough to keep holding on x2 [Verse 3: Psiklone] In a spiral in downward descention, drown in depression No amount of counselling sessions could ever [bow?] my aggression Crushed by a powerful tension, I don't see sheep at night I'm too busy counting my blessings Lost and alone, enclosed, boxed in my zone Cold as the frostbitten glow given off by a ghost Feel ungrateful complaining about my status of living When each day people die in disgraceful conditions I guess it's all relative, my thoughts negative I channel raw messages just to form sentences Life's my sworn nemesis; I even admit Sometimes I wish to bleed from my wrist and cease to exist Hold issues close to my broken heart Am I walking a chosen path? I can't embrace faith with open arms Emotions charged, breaking the curse Sense the pain of the Earth but I can't explain it in words I'm battling demons inside, searching for unachievable reasons to the meaning of life Clueless as to when I meet my demise Feelings behind my insecurities stop me seizing my time I can't sleep through the night, my dreams are denied As the tears begin to seep from deep in my eyes Slowly losing strength in my grip Fingers slipping from the edge of the cliff Falling into the endless abyss