Rêverie - 0300 Hours lyrics

Reverie - "0300 Hours" (2007) Woke up & heard the news, it was 3 o' clock Couldn't function, couldn't breathe, my heart stopped Today I held you, today I kissed you Told you I loved you, now I'm screaming out, "I MISS YOU!" I can't believe what I'm hearing from his mama on the phone Suddenly it's all gone. Man, I'm all alone I don't think I've woken up, this must be a dream Cuz there's a kid inside of me & he's gon need a team & now it's only me. My baby ain't near me She's screaming on the phone like, "Jordan, can you hear me!?" I hang it up. I'm having trouble breathing I'm socking all my walls till my fist starts bleeding & now I'm screaming, I'm steady thinking bout the facts There's nothing I can do, there's no way he's coming back This ain't no break up to make up, no ransom, bail, or price tag All I got left is my baby in a black bag My phone keeps ringing. Why the f** they keep calling !? I can't f**en stand and these tears keep falling I'm looking at the ceiling. How'd I get on the floor ? I must have pa**ed out. Now it's about 4 I don't bother getting up cuz there ain't nothing else to live for Crawl over to the cabinet. I'm downing all the liquor Not thinking about nothing. I just want my boo f** the world, f** my baby, motha f** you ! I pick it up again, it's Roger on the line He says he's coming over cuz he knows I'm f**en dying He says I sounds drunk & he's really f**en worried I'm seeing blurry. He says he's coming in a hurry He barges in, I'm on the floor, wasted & shaking He shakes me, looking at me, says, "What have you taken ?" He sees the bottles on the floor & he hits me in the lip Says, "What the f** you doing ? You're having a f**en kid!" The phone rings again. He picks it up & then he grabs me Carries me to the car. I wanna die so badly Takes me to a house. Everybody's there gathered I got my head down, sh**, nobody even matters I swear to f**en God, time stopped that night & I swore to f**en God when I saw that sight That 1 day he would be sorry even though I knew he wouldn't be Why did you take my baby ? He's so motha f**en good to me They say you never really know what you got until it's gone I knew & loved what I had but sh** still went wrong We motha f**en loved each other. You could say we were obsessed Now he's gone & I don't know what to do. I'm such a mess I'm so depressed, f**en stressed & every night before I sleep I say a little prayer for my baby, rest in peace Man, you're always on my mind & you're always in my face I see you everywhere I go. Every motha f**en place I gotta tell myself to stop because I get myself hoping It's you standing there. Man, I'm having trouble coping- I went back to the coke thing, I cry until I'm choking Only time I feel at peace is when I'm by myself smoking I drink myself to sleep. This sh** is f**ing with my mind I'm doing therapy & pills. I think I just need time I wish that I was blind, wish I was def & emotionless The 1 person I love ! I can't believe I have to go through this ! I wish that I could kiss you & f** you til we can't Wish we could have a conversation. Wish that I could hold your hand But all I got left is poems & love letters Some pictures & some videos saying you "finally met her." The love of your life. Brown eyes, 5'3'' Man, a cutie with a booty, you were talking bout me I lost our precious little baby. Doctor said it was the stress Didn't even wanna have it, man, I gotta confess Cuz when you died I turned cold & it broke my f**en spirit I'm writing you this song saying I love you, hope you hear it They say you never really know what you got until it's gone I knew & loved what I had & sh** still went wrong We complimented each other, they always said that we were perfect Now he's gone, I'm feeling like I'm motha f**en worthless I lost my purpose & every night before I sleep I cry & say a little prayer, boy, I love you, rest in peace