Remot - Certain Sermons (Prod. Remot) lyrics

Do I believe in God? Does she believe in me? Look Pastor told me think On all the times when I needed help, and somebody didn't blink To have my back... And in turn, I'm like that's sh**'s coincidental Wasn't prayin', or thinking 'bout Jesus, despite my first parental Bein' saved, the other one's pretty anti-Church, in several ways They never got along, permanent residence on different pages 3 kids raised, half God fearing and then half estranged to that concept Mad jealous when somebody left Up in the back row of the pews, dodging invitations to altars That alter yo mind, some indoctrinated patients These doctors becoming preachers, study years to know how to twist They language into persuasion, convincin' you it's not a myth This God real but yours ain't, scribbled false idols in bloody war paint Hopin' that Jehovah shows at every court date 'cause they on the side of righteousness, surely all they juries see the light Acquit, innocent on all counts of some minor sh** I sorta kinda miss, camaraderie in the Sunday schools When we was transformin' these Southern rules into somethin' cool Quenchin' the thirst, the precursors to all these verses Never cared much for religion, caught my heart wit' certain sermons though Don't like yo church man I don't wanna go (they gon' make you pray) Why you believe in that I wanna know (they gon' make you pray) I see the fire I don't wanna go (they gon' make you pray) I'll talk to Peter I'm a rider doe Do I believe in Jesus? Do I believe in God? I got too many reasons To disbelieve the plot I been down on my luck a lot But at the same time I had women hangin' off the jock My college days, and my last two ended wit' her needin' a million miles of space I done tried that love sh**, and I'm jaded now Don't nobody love for real, why the f** would I take this vow I'm thinkin' somethin' exists, but he fell back to watch us be viciously Sacreligious...and we gon' come back wit' blisters from hell I been confessin' my transgressions to create that feelin' Hidin' out from three women in a house party that breaks the ceiling I done made karma's acquaintance two times, now that's a beyitch Paralyzed half of my face, and my lady called it quits in summer '14 And good riddance 'cause she ain't support dreams that I'm avidly chasin' No time for a doubtin' chick, I'm mad impatient (went from actin' out to impactin' the house I'm Reagan b**h) Sermons influenced ya boy, but I never liked church And I feel like I'm newly destroyed 'cause livin' my life hurts, I just wonder how God works Been too many times, had me goin' through it Like prisoners on d**h row who ain't do it f** the prosecution, k** the witnesses, I know I blew it Wait...except for the judge 'cause he special Honorable Allah, accelerate to the bench wit' no pedals I need a brake for real Wonderin' what place God has for a Navy SEAL 'cause k**in' the right ones, and the wrong ones, that pays the bills But, where the f** is yo conscience Daydreamin' during these sermons my eyes open to the monsters like Darkness falls across the land The midnight hour's close at hand Creatures crawl lookin for blood I saw yo' pastor comin' out the club Preach