Ramirez - Dear Diary lyrics

[Hook] Momma telling me I'll be okay She don't understand I'm living day by day Pop another pill to feel ok Thinking bout' suicide everyday I've been through this route What's my life about Popping pills and living life full of doubt Praying on the edge my bed Hoping I could get responses Battle my illness alone, crying a river I'm honest Oh no I don't know which way to go I don't even have my home In the dark is where I roam I've been stuck and all alone [Verse 1: Ramirez] Popping these pills and I'm asking God why Do I have urges to just wanna die Receiving no answers cos' God is a lie Look in my eyes See pain that's inside I done lost a couple friends For the way n***a been acting No faking No pretending I just really wanna f**ing end this Oh no Grabbing my gun and I point at my dome I'm telling myself, be easy, let go Don't pull on the trigger there's much to hold on But these pills they kick in and I just can't move on Lost in my ways and I try to forget All of this sadness and all this regret I look to my mom and I tell her like this Yo' son is a f** up Yo' son can't do sh** [Hook] My Momma telling me I'll be okay She don't understand I'm living day by day Pop another pill to feel ok I thinking bout' Suicide everyday [Verse 2: Ramirez] Stand in closet I'm tying a noose You living a lie I'm stuck in the truth Faking a smile but depression the root I try to be happy but I can't it's a fluke Love for my friends but they don't know I'm through I don't see no sun cause I stay in my room I look in the mirror The vision gets clearer Anxiety, got me trapped in this sh** too [Hook] My Momma telling me I'll be okay She don't understand I'm living day by day Pop another pill to feel ok I thinking bout' Suicide everyday I've been through this route What's my life about Popping pills and living life full of doubt Praying on the edge my bed Hoping I could get responses Battle my illness alone, crying a river I'm honest Oh no I don't know which way to go I don't even have my home In the dark is where I roam I've been stuck and all alone