Rahmel - Thoughts Of A Victim lyrics

[Intro] Yeah, just let this b**h breath Uhuh, just let this b**h breath Yeah [Verse 1] Every time I build hope its like everything just shoots me down Its like life is a giant film and the movies loud And no ones there to listen but I feel like I'm the only one who even pays attention Why do I always get stuck in these positions When I try to avoid the very thing that I get in man And people telling me they know how I feel struggling to make a meal So mama won't pay them bills Young mogul swear my mind is like a gold mine if I ever need some clarity In my mind is where I'll go mind Sometimes I ask myself are we even here the whole time or when we close our Eyes do our minds just go blind I think back to when I first fell in love soph*more year in high school At least I thought thats what it was, I thought I was in luck but love was Like a drug and for those of you wondering, yeah Ebony was who it was, damn Kinda glad that I just named dropped and it seems like everything stops Cause once I start writing I guess the pain drops I know its wrong but Im Just praying that this game stops I see no originality only "trap beat flows" filled with agony I feel different cause I have to be And fear is chasing after me, destiny is lapping me I'm setting up for tragedy Can't believe the victim role is what I have to be [Hook] You did this to me (alright x3) This is who I'm meant to be (alright x3) Didn't wanna be this cold, but I can't be the old me no more x2 (oh no x4) [Verse 2] Gotta say I changed a lot the last 4 years Stopped crying now the kid ain't shedding no tears But what grows is fear inside my soul Of losing all the things that I cannot control Yeah I got some hoes and I smoked some dro Even stole a few items from them corner stores Catholic boy confused about religious rules Until he got older, developed his on views Gotta take action NO, needa take action Friendship between Davon, Kriss, and me is slacking Things ain't been the same since me and Davon had Zaire All that commotion that went on but I ain't really care And I been stuck in fear, and I been stuck in guilt I know its wrong but I feel I destroyed what we built sh** bros before hoes is a true saying, I had to settle down Cause I was really through playing, I know the ones that be "Rahmel this dudes slaying" Then talk behind my back, been knew you dudes were faking some fronting like he average But think this dudes amazing, some thinking he Satanic saying this dudes a Mason Or that this dudes an agent Or that this dudes so ancient People who really be talking be the dudes who ain't sh** But I dont stress I just keep my ears to the pavement so I can listen to the snakes That want me to vanquish that want me to anquish That dont 'stand me cause your worst enemy Could really be your best man be And they telling me they want another Seven Seals And I'm just saying what you talking bout Jesus still here Yeah Jesus still here and I ain't leaving yet, they say life Starts when you breath and I ain't breathing yet And I'm just writing down my thoughts cause you ain't see em yet As I simply just lay me to rest [Hook]