Rachel Gieck - Master number 33 lyrics

A year can change many things I've been buried, dug out and left in my own grave Except this time around the messages got changed You don't find love through others and selfless doubts These are just two different things The only position that love can breed Is when your feeding it to yourself You can't live through someone else's eyes You have to live through your own It's the only way to live free You can't even begin to express authentic self to somebody else Until you establish a clear reflection in the mirror that you built You can't sell majority of your soul And pretend like your innocent Like the bargain never got old You can't depend happiness on whatever the weather that day holds And pretend to purge all your thoughts but never actually let them go So I've planted my seeds and I've watched them grow I've made mistakes and I've forgiven my mind body soul I've truly meditated and I've spent time alone I've sat in the abyss of fear and I never ran home I'm trying to look at love as something new NOT a replacement for a void A void to me that was relatively new news Something that wasn't my fault but the sh**ty things I did were the actions I was taught Is still something I evaluate it expands my soul. It puts my heart on the spot But to say I didn't learn the majority of what I have from other people that surround me That are unfortunately buried in my past To say that it's tasteless would be a lie Because to be honest it was an honest playing field Both entities just trying to survive But I've fought and I've learned And I've fallen and I've gotten back up I've been lost I've been crazy I've been insecure And I've grown the f** up Because where I'm headed is absolute freedom I sing in the shower again I dance when I'm alone I can finally hear my thoughts breathing And although the timeline didn't match up There's no taste left here because if it didn't happen I would have never started growing up Its just unfortunate that those will never see The true authentic self id love to introduce you all to This new person I've gotten to know - me