Rachael Sage - Cultivate lyrics

I think I need to cultivate my anger I think I need to cultivate my scream I try to make you shake, I try to make you pander To the parts of me suffocating underneath I think I need to cultivate my humor See I only focus on what's in between Melancholy is my name, melancholy makes a joyful girl insane Think I need to study how to be serene Or I'm gonna just lose you I'm gonna just lose you I'm gonna just lose you now I think I need to cultivate my laughter I think I need to cultivate my lust I think I need to concentrate on ugly Or I'm gonna try to be so pretty I will bust Or I'm gonna just lose you I'm gonna just lose you I'm gonna just lose you now I'm gonna just lose you I'm gonna confuse you The only way I know how It isn't fair that the only thing I Know's what I've been taught And it isn't fair that the only thing I Go for's what I'm not And it isn't fair that the only thing I Need's what I don't have And it cracks you up that I'm oh so sad Should be easy enough to find the pa**ion I've got plenty to be pa**ionate about I'm obsessed with you I'm depressed with me, I'm undressing every ghost I see I'm embittered by the way I'm burning out I'm gonna just lose it I'm gonna just lose it I'm gonna sell you my soul I'm gonna go crazy, I'm gonna sing badly I'm gonna concede control I think I need to cultivate my anger, I only seem to Have what's in between insanity is what's feeding me and Loneliness promises to lead to Another resting place of lost and found See how happy I can be when I'm pretending I'm not me Think I need to medicate my innermost girl-scout