Prymary - What Little Girls Are For lyrics

Five years old, dirty room Here he comes, nowhere to hide But inside closed eyes, shrinking away Maybe he won't see me Legs squeezed tight, but not tight enough It's never enough to keep him out There in the dirty room He shows me just what little girls are for Caught in a slide, caught in a prison Nowhere to hide, legs squeezed tight He shows me just what little girls are for And I'm not here anymore Fourteen years old, alone with him Guilt and promises in another dirty room "If you really love me ...I promise we'll take it slow" I guess he might have meant it - until I said no Legs squeezed tight, but not tight enough It's never enough to keep him out Lying there with eyes closed tight It'll be over soon if I don't put up a fight Where the pain ends Is where I begin Scars are hidden deep within Where only memories remain I can tell you my secrets But the pain is my own It's always a reminder Of what little girls are for So I learned I was never worth as much As when I was down on my knees Or giving away these pieces of me Silent screams in my head Until I don't know who I am I fear that I may have nothing left to give As I'm taking them in I'm losing myself to the wind And my cries to god fall on silent ears Now I know for sure just what little girls are for And I'm not here And I'm not here And I'm not here anymore Twenty-three years old, alone in the car Except for him as he shuts the door I'm suddenly reminded what I am for With eyes closed tight as I'm spinning Legs squeezed tight But not tight enough, it's never enough to keep him out Oh please God... not again Another piece of me that's empty and dead Where the pain ends Caught in the slide Is where I begin Caught in a prison Scars are hidden deep within Nowhere to hide Where only memories remain Legs squeezed tight I can tell you my secrets And he shows me But the pain is my own What little girls are for Always a reminder And I'm not here Of what little girls are for Not here anymore Thirty years old and you're in my life And you're so different from all the rest The words from your lips tell me I'm worth so much more than I know And maybe someday soon I'll believe Your words can save me, erase these old stains And help me to pick up the pieces of me And maybe I'll find some redemption And maybe someday soon I will find forgiveness for all my sins And give me some room to come undone and find myself again I am here... I am here somewhere