Prymary - In My Shell lyrics

I am a child of eight Reborn in the fires Hidden scars of pain Thoughts are out of mind But every time they surface A shock to the system Sensation overload As I become undone In my shell Free from pain Buffer me Washing me In my shell I will find My own hell In my mind Words are empty They can't convey Thoughts that need expressing So much left unsaid Acting out k**ing time Slipping up Losing my mind In my shell Free from pain Buffer me Washing me In my shell I will find My own hell In my mind I'm bursting at the seams It's not what it seems I'm just a child with a secret I've seen too much for my eyes I can't express what's on my mind I've lost the will to even try Flashbacks in my mind I'm fighting an uphill climb I've lost my will to roll the stone Inviting in the demons To cover up this feeling And let my world just go to hell If you could only see the real me You'd probably turn in disgust If you only knew my shame I'd rightly earn your distrust To think I could have laid with him It's such a haze of memories I finally see I wouldn't blame you at all If you saw me as a monster In my shell Free from pain Buffer me Washing me In my shell I will find My own hell In my mind Mommy doesn't understand But Daddy's there for me Washing over