Proph3cY - Afraid to Be lyrics

Afraid to be Lyrics: Intro: Yeah, Listen Let me break this sh** down for you From one to twenty Verse: I was at the crib Chillin with a bottle No like I was a baby just s**in on a nozel Then I learned to crawl Learnin how to Speak Mamma sing me a lullaby so I sleep At the age of three I remember sorta vidid images of the plane down to California Startin elementary- people mentor me- and give me knowledge- but out of pocket Daddys got it Always got it Turnin 5 at the time and attending kindergarten Got a target To makin progress So I'm makin an effort to ace a drawin Work is really borin and super early up in the morning But I think I'm noticing a couple friends are forming Playdates and an otterpop when it's really scorching now we're all joining in extracurricular sporting and I'm shaking kids hands after soccer tournaments Askin bout my right one- I was born with it- mama always told me never never to call it deformity (She you really shouldn't say that you're really special...) This wasn't really phasin me early off in the races I was always at a parallel with these parallel faces- now because a conscious is stirring up in my matrix Real world people racist see- and this is make believe- feel discrimination where there really ain't you see come to think of it I really was a slave to me- shaking anybodys hand was takin bravery Uncomfortable like I'm ashamed to be While I'm judging on my self I needed pain relief it never came to me and I was stained to see- that it was make believe- open the gate for me I'm so afraid to be Still I keep rising like a bakery- age 14 seeking what is made of me age 15 think is when I made a beat Stayed hooked till the top like drapery More on that later At the time the priority wasn't beat maker Too concerned with transitioning to the ninth grade New girls and old friends that might fade Guess back in 8th grade we role played One year in highschool you all jade Or maybe I did I can't say That's change it's all good we okay you freshmen find matching clicks- cuz I ain't having it Till those freshman double practices- and I was smackin kids Ya'll invited me back to the Hagman crib Chris Eddie Mike June and the Hagman twins That's a summer we can talk about and laugh a bit Football was a blast and we had to win Ya'll one year that don't factor in- we were still stickin tight middle pa**ages- am I an African? Cuz I spit so hard when I'm ga**in in Yeah 16's when I struck a pa**ion in- rappin quick- don't understand like half of it When I vocalize a venom that the wise have felt- from inside myslef- composed the rhyme myself- showed the homies and they thought it was hot-maybe a cla**ic- this was more organic than pieces those corner mashups Make original music and see their hands up But I knew I had to confront my demons and man up All the years I was stressin hidding my hand bruh- now you spin the record I'll start to hit ya with answers 17 when my homies had graduated I knew my senior years was irrelevant had to make it my momma made that I'm late and I'm in my cla**es impatient I waited till I hit the station composin up to the AM The same year that a girl had dipped in my pocket- stole my V card straight out my wallet next to a faucet Knew I could have waited but foolish pride had me racin the moment initiated right after leaving the basement Yeah the p**y is power but been a star- I can see a lot more coming if I stick with these bars- sweet calligraphy sweet delivery hittin my mark Maybe college is the place that will put me on the radar By the time I was bout to be college bound I was coming around putting in work to polish a sound Committed to this game like I'm Nicholson in the crowd Recording in my dorm room closet laying it down Knew that Chico State was the place to turn it up loud Kids are turnin up with a 5th I turn up the sound And as far as women you know the girl that I found Rather found me and then started dragging me down But she showed me love for like every flaw that I owned My first girlfriend I could say was a stepping stone Around nineteen you can find me shaking a hand Took a pair of decades to find that I even can So afraid to be till I try to grow and expand Currently I love looking back at where I began Currently I'm twenty no money set with a plan Imma make my music and love myself as a man Whose afraid to be just relate with me if you can Cuz now when I'm performing I'm proudly raising my hand Yeah the 3 in Proph3cY was all part of the plan You put me on this earth and I'll do the best that I can