[Prod. by Mndsgn] - Sunshine Etrnl_Ramona's Envy lyrics

[Verse 1] Laying on the bed whispering lies to myself Hoping when i think and pray i can find myself some help Wondering if the sun has problems that are similar Or if mathematics feel loss when they supplement an integer Literal Cancerous back virus Infiltrating the pieces that I've labeled as violent Decibels reach the membrane and a snapchat occurs And phalanges touch the collar bone at the end of every word It's not the first time that guilt has sunken to the marrow Or the coffin like sleep patterns of a mummified pharaoh I wish What a joke If wishes could really come true I dun do every wrong thing that I've ever done to you Every wrong thing that I've done to me Useful and abuse for the exchange of living comfortably As of age, the crazy emotions who's logic starts to bleed And somehow the best way to live is by jaded breath I've gone insane and yet Somehow I've found a plane of space to rage and rest Potential is an underflow Undergoing sediment to stabilize the other flows I mean the proper pose And the [?] In the form of a Genghis Khan fire bomb Or a proper method on For distinguishing right and wrongs And I've just found a pillow to lay upon [Hook] I wish i had the strength to tell you that i loved you But everything I've ever said has found it's way to lie And the pain is an easy way to remain but alive I'll probably take a ride where the sun doesn't shine I wish i had the strength to tell you that i loved you But everything I've ever said has found it's way to lie And the pain is an easy way to remain but alive I'll probably take a ride where the sun doesn't shine [Verse 2] Sometimes i wonder when the other me disappeared If it died with my mother, brother, or lucid fears It's part of a substantiating system of elusive tears And the anime p**n desktop seems to make me a little weird I see the veins popping out of my wrist But i haven't worked out since you told me that i was going to miss The held tight sentiment and an even deeper kiss The photograph moments of when things seemed legit Sometimes the apparatus doesn't find a way to fit it's counterpart And unconsciously forfeits it This water gate doesn't have the proper lift So the villagers can find a way to eat or sh** It's funny Sometimes it seems my phone has a mind of it's own It seems to vibrate at times when the light isn't on Maybe it's my way of hoping that i'm wrong To avoid the bu*ting joke of something for so long Commitment is strong But it seems to be a bit stronger when my heart is alone Because my conscious is grown And my will to live seems a bit hard to hold Especially when Jay died, it no longer has a home A lavish lust and obsessive wants to feed Love to control I wonder if my mother's dead because she wanted to go [Verse 3] Contrary to belief, this isn't a waste of my time It's a waste of a time frame where i'm wasting my life If for some odd reason i can't figure the type of one [Litter to box?], it's been a bane on my mind Sitting Indian style, lost in my gaze in the computer screen Looking at the pictures of when you were in love with me Thinking if my head could emulate the feels you gave to me Or if i'm just a level of insane that counteracts my maturity I haven't let go because i see the solutions But head always wraps around the most negative conclusions Intrusion, intruder alert I've always liked fast cars since i was a squirt And my black two-door is like a stain on my shirt Before an interview that determines the start of my worth Check it [Outro (Sample: Scott Pilgrim vs The World)] Hey, it's me again, Scott, give me a call when you get this, Scott Pilgrim (I swear this is like the Diary of a Wimpy Kid) What's the deal? Seriously Yup, You said that last night You know what really s**s though? What? Everything (I swear this is like the f**ing Diary of a Wimpy Kid) You can't say you didn't see this coming What? What did you think these were? Kisses? (Diary of a Wimpy Kid) Sentimental Kisses? Seven deadly X's Oooh, why does everything have to be so complicated? If you want something bad, you have to fight for it Step up your game scott, break out the L word Lesbian? The other L word Lesbians? (I swear this is like the Diary of a Wimpy Kid) It's love Scott, I wasn't trying to trick you Hey, Buddy, look, if she really is the girl of your dreams, then you have to let her know You have to overcome any and all obstacles that lie in you path (I swear this is like the Diary of a Wimpy Kid) You can do it! Be with her! It's your destiny Plus, i need you to move out What? Yeah, i'm kind of banking on her calling you back so i don't have to evict you and feel all guilty and sh** (Ringing) I have a feeling that's for you guy Hey Hey, Scott Envy? Oh sh** Been a while Yeah A year i think Approximately How are you? I'm not doing so good right now Aw, that's too bad Still breaking hearts? What? No I've been- It's been different You have no idea Probably not Do you have a girlfriend? Should i be...Jealous? Yes, you should, I have this totally awesome girlfriend who calls me all the time and she's America Er, She's American What's her name? I'm not telling you that Ramona Oh What? Do you know her? What? No Well it sounded like you did I gotta go, it's been nice chatting with you Wait