PlagueWolfe - The Song I Had To Write lyrics

Verse 1: What's the point of saying that you love me if you're only gonna dub me right after you f**ing sub me man I thought that I was lucky but I've never been a lucky one I guess that I was just for fun consolation prize to what you could've won Now I'm back to old habits chasing white rabbits down deep holes smoking to the soul cause Ive lost control and b**h you were the same one saying you'd make me whole and now here I am a part got me on a roll But am I really in the wrong when your the one that left and I'm the one that's stuck behind contemplating d**h I mean you took the steps I said you would regret now you blaming me saying I should just forget I mean you nested right inside my head and all those lies you fed and all the tears you never shed you did the one thing I f**ing dread And sh** I ain't to blame And nah I don't regret you for a second cause to right this song I needed f**ing pain Hook 1: You wanted me to say I still cared but I still feared and I couldn't prepare for this despair it's not fair I mean you walk in then you walked out like I meant nothing man I really could've did without Now I feel sick we moved to quick got my Glock clicked wanna see a new trick everyone knows I ain't with that love sh** but sh** I thought that I could love and sh** Verse 2: Sleeping alone while some new n***a hears you moan heart made of stone spitting pain into a microphone schizo state but you still keeping me up to date no pulse rate as I try to illustrate The reason I fled or all the sh** I said the problems over fed why can't it just be dead f** the sh** we dread and just look ahead me yah mans could break bread but who you want inside yo bed Hook 2: I feel like Ima drown why am I so down she had me looking like a clown she got from lost in found I don't know where I'm at but I hope them blunts is packed Kause I really can't go back nah I really can't go back