Phora - Sinner, Pt. 2 lyrics

Yeah, I just can't take this pressure no more Why I feel like I've been in this place before I just can't take no more I just can't smile like I'm still me, I just can't fake no more I try to be all I can but that wasn't enough for them We can't find love so we replace it with these d** again I drink from this bottle dog it's my only friend I'm so scared to be alone again Fake smile on my face I just can't keep pretending like I don't pretend And my little homie's doing twenty five If God exists why he never try To show us that this life is more than pain Cause is hard to live when you're dead inside And they say I'm worthless cause I ain't a Christian Like turn a church into a f**ing business They k**ed Jehovah, didn't leave a witness And these preachers crooked as these politicians Politics, religion, I don't see the difference They crucify me cause I'm speaking different Who the f** are they to judge? Tell me you or you to criticize the way I'm living 40 ounces for the pain I ain't been the same since I've seen my pops cry I might be light skin to you But I'm still a n***a in the cops eyes They ain't stopping til' we all die Mama I just hope you understand I just couldn't take the pressure Mama, see I tried my best to be a better man And you might know my story dawg But you won't ever know my pain And she was all I needed Now this bottle is my Novocain Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane They say lately I ain't been the same But they won't ever know my pain And I know lately I ain't been the same I just never really show my pain, my pain Yeah, man I can't feel nothing no more Fake love don't cut it no more Homie, I've been drinking so much Nothing staying in my stomach no more I can't even feel the pain inside I can't keep living in a lie Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else But I still don't feel alive Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin' Make me feel like God ain't really watching Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin' They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin' Now a days, these cops just wanna k** No love in the streets, don't wanna feel What I felt when I heard my lil' brother pa**ed I'll never get him back But yo I still, know his soul is still roamin' on the streets Now I just hope he's watching over me Now I just keep on praying I've been trynna' talk to God but these demons never leave I know I lost myself along the way I was just too scared to fade away Now they all keep begging me to stay But I can't be here another day So I drink from this bottle til' I feel numb again I've been tempted by these d** again I know I ain't been the same Momma told me she just wanna see her son again I just wanna see her smile again I don't ever wanna see her cry So I lie and say that I'm okay But, I've been plottin' on my suicide And you might know my story dawg But you won't ever know my pain And she was all I needed Now this bottle is my novacane Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane They say lately I ain't been the same But they won't ever know my pain And I know lately I ain't been the same But I just never really show my pain, my pain I just don't show my pain