Phora - Forgive Me Mother lyrics

He had the heart of a soldier in a city full of bandits Ran with the cold spirits, couple of bad habits Heart full of pain and a pipe full of magic Getting him high, he's feeling like he's ready to die But his girl just told him she pregnant, he don't know what to do The word "Father" was just something that he never knew So hows he gonna be one Hows he gonna raise child in a city full of demons When his mother had three sons And two of em' dead, one took two to the head The other took three to the heart, he never knew what was said But he knows, he's all his mother got now He ain't got no feelings, they say he's numb to the pain He on the corner with the Glock now Momma always told him he was God's son But he's feeling like the Devils advocate Running streets with the lost ones And he don't wanna lose touch with his soul But he's feeling like he ain't got nowhere to go Nowhere to go He wanted to be like Nas, Biggie and Pac He used to bump em' in his uncles whip until he got shot The first time he ever saw tears coming from his mother's eyes Too young to understand, so he just wondered why He always used to ask the Lord if heaven had a ghetto And when he tries to end it all, he just can't seem to let go He shed so many tears, so many times, so many lies All he feels in his heart is hate, so he never cries He's running with the pack like a wild coyote Running the city sticking n***a's up like "Pay what you owe me" It's just him against the world, all his homeboys turned on him They plotting to get him, they asking "What's the word on him?" They heard his mother stayed a few blocks down Hopped in the ride, got to the house and let off some rounds Twenty-five shots through the window, ten through the door Opened his eyes and he seen his mother dead on the floor Mother forgive me