Phora - Secrets lyrics

[Verse 1] She said she couldn't stay too late She gotta be home by ten, she had school the next day She wasn't the type to play She ain't like them other chicks She ain't known for getting drunk, popping pills, or s**ing dick More like the type to show up to cla** An hour early, never wearing shorts that's showing her a** Got to hold on her past, can't let go of it She don't really smile, but nobody ever notices Grade A student, all her teachers love her She just wished she felt that same love from her mother But she's stuck in county jail for eighteen months So its just her and pops and everyday he's drunk They hardly talk, so when she gets to the house She goes straight to her room and she shuts the lights out Hoping the next day comes sooner than later She can't wait to move out, four-hundred dollars saved up She knows she got a long way to go But she keeps her head so high, you'd probably never know What she had to go through for so long Yo, but she never forgets to hold on [Hook] She said, "If you knew my secret, I wonder what you'd say I wonder if you'd leave and I wonder if you'd stay I wonder if you'd see me in a different way Its hard to hold this in, I think about it everyday" Yeah, I wonder what you'd say I wonder if you'd see me in a different way I think about it everyday [Verse 2] She met a kid named Joey, knew he had a crush Always made her laugh and said things to make her blush But she tried so hard to pay him no attention Scared her past would eventually ruin the friendship Cause its so hard for her to open her feelings He said, "If you don't give me your heart beautiful I'mma steal it" So twelve months pa**ed and ever since he said that She been in love, but everybody has their setbacks Slowly, but surely he was fading away While she was falling deeper for him and she waited for days For him to call her like he always did, but five days went by and If you listen closely you can hear her still crying She wrote on paper saying, "I'm sorry" I just wish you knew you're the reason that my heart beats Always made me smile ever since the day you saw me You were my guardian angel when I had nobody Yo, but there's something I haven't told you For six years there was something that I had to go through That shattered my spirit and my dreams, I know you can see it My father did these things to me and no one believed it My mom was never there to see, I hope when she reads this She ODs on the very thing that broke us to pieces You were the only person I ever loved And it k**s me inside to know that I was the one To ruin what we had and I knew this would happen Yo, I just thought me and you would've lasted Knife to her wrist as she dropped to the floor But right be before she cut she heard a knock at the door [Hook] She said, "If you knew my secret, I wonder what you'd say I wonder if you'd leave and I wonder if you'd stay I wonder if you'd see me in a different way Its hard to hold this in, I think about it everyday" Yeah, I wonder what you'd say I wonder if you'd see me in a different way I think about it everyday