Phora - Pain lyrics

Verse 1: Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of d**h I fear no man but God as I take my last breath Used to beg them to stay and they'd just ask me to leave You dont know what strugglin means until they shatter your dreams Keep moving, no matter if them f**ers wanna doubt you n***a Never been fed with a silver spoon, what about you n***a? From the craddle to my motherf**in' grave b**h Heard my momma cryin' homie, I ain't been the same since Blue skies turnin' white, theirs blood on the pavement And all they ever ask me is "Phora how did you make it?" Not "where did you come from?" or "tell me your story" Theirs a difference between cats who want something from and for me But I ain't trippin, they tellin me to settle down Aha but i ain't settlin' for nothin' And the people i hung around would just let me down Eventually I was the only one i trusted Real talk, I try not to show emotion Alot of sh** inside me i won't put out in the open I hope i never snap, Lord knows that im destined for greatness But those n***as keep testin my patience, I got Chorus: Pain in my heart, tryna not to let it show They ask me if Im ready, I never said no way But you really never know(x2) Verse 2: I just close my eyes and imagine And just try to fly away Aiming for tomorrow but we dying by the day Ill be the first one to say i cry I ain't ashamed They keep tellin me to smile but yo im tryna find a way Losing touch to myself tears droppin to the pavement Honestly I dont know how much longer i can take it And I know how it feels to lose all everyone that you love And start questiong the one up above Like why do all the good people gotta die And why these young kids victim to a homicide I dont know but im still searchin for the answers Haven't smoked since my grandfather died from cancer So dont take offense when I dont hit the blunt with you Cause theirs a reason, it dont mean that I dont f** wit you All It means is that you dont know what Im going through Dont ask to talk about it, its not something that im open to Behind every smile is a number of tears, told myself that i have nothing to fear But little did i know when you keep all that pain inside You'll be your own worst enemy til the day you die Chorus: Pain in my heart, tryna not to let it show They ask me if Im ready, I never said no way But you really never know(x2)