Phora - Numb Pt. 2 lyrics

[Intro] Yeah [Verse] I haven't spoke about these feelings and I think I need to I see people say they're happy, but their smile is see-through I hear people say they love me, but I don't believe you That's just what happens when the one that kept you living leaves you See, I'm just scared I'll never love again Why can't you put it past us and love me for who I am? I'm startin' to feel like I've been gettin' closer to my sins And this devil on my shoulder is the only thing that lives, but There was times I would feel too deep, I would start to panic And the people I gave my all to would take advantage See, you called me crazy, but I pick up every time it rings When you say that you hate me, I just don't understand it Maybe I'm too damaged, maybe I'm too broken Maybe I'm losin' myself or maybe I'm just hopeless It's like we live inside a world where we can't show emotions Like the ones that hurt us most are who we hold the closest (Are who we hold the closest) And I just feel like there's nowhere else to run (Nowhere else to run) I'm scared of seein' mirrors 'cause I hate who I become (I hate who I become) I can never find a reason why I'm just so hard to love But I can find a thousand reasons why I'm loadin' up this gun, look These days I need to be alone, but I hate bein' lonely (I hate bein' lonely) And I hate the new me, but I don't miss the old me Still damaged by the empty love you tried to show me 'Cause I wasn't the only one, it was your one and only And my family don't look at me the same They look at me like we don't share the same blood in our veins They look at me like I'm different when they're the ones who changed, or Maybe I was too distant, too stuck in my ways (Too stuck in my ways), fu*k I hope God hears me, no one's prayin' for me Your eyes tell me everything you're scared of sayin' to me My heart is growin' cold, but you would never know I learned to love these scars by forgivin' those who gave 'em to me Certain people will never get who I am (Never get who I am) Sometimes you have to listen to silence to understand (Silence to understand) Wore my heart on my sleeve and I put my life in your hands Did all I could, you still made me feel like less than a man (Made me feel like less than a man) [Outro] We always seem to run from those that love us the most We never open up because we're scared to get close We runnin' from the past and We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last 'cause You left me when I needed you most I said, we always seem to run from those that love us the most We never open up because we're scared to get close We runnin' from the past and We numb ourselves, hopin' that it last We just hopin' that it last (Hopin' that it last)