Phoebe Bridgers - Funeral lyrics

I'm singing at a funeral tomorrow For a kid a year older than me And I've been talking to his dad, it makes me so sad When I think too much about it, I can't breathe And I have this dream where I'm screaming underwater While my friends are waving from the shore And I don't need you to tell me what that means I don't believe in that stuff any more Jesus Chris, I'm so blue all the time And that's just how I feel Always have, and I always will I always have and always will I have a friend I call When I've bored myself to tears And we talk until we think we might just k** ourselves But then we laugh until it disappears And last night I blacked out in my car And I woke up in my childhood bed Wishing I was someone else, feeling sorry for myself When I remembered, someone's kid is dead Jesus Christ, I'm so blue all the time And that's just how I feel Always have, and I always will I always have and always will And it's 4 a.m. Again And I'm doing nothing Again