Phenom - Wrong direction lyrics

(Verse 1) I can't even think straight, my mind is straying from stress So many problems on my mind that I seem to never forget Dark thoughts, lurking in my head, like I'm going insane Seeing images of my past, threw a cracked window frame Being taunted by devil voices, so I'm stuck in a negative place Being consumed by the devils lethal injection Feeling neglected, so no one can see my perspective I'm so lost in this world like Carmen, but I'm far from San Diego So far down in my sorrow i can't even see, which way to go Walking through a path that just overflows with misery There is no hope; I'm trying to get in a mindset of diversity And do things differently, trying to get out the rough, physically Wishing life was easy, only way I vent my problems Is through writing these lyrics always resolving them Words of a musician, that uses paper and beats to ease my spirit Which foreign parents always believe that I'm a bad seed? Instead they put more attention on me smoking smoking trees They won't see what I'm trying to achieve The past experience got me stressing , now stuck in grief Theres no Chorus My life heading in the wrong direction My mind is filled with my past aggression So it blinds my eyes perception So let the music move me forward in this world of pure depression (Verse 2) Lack of communication got me drowned in worldly frustrations Pushed out of humanities existence, feels like I never existed Feeling different ,coming to a world that's filled with horrific tragedies In the distant , I see nothing but pain within my vision Tossed in my deception calling for help In reality, no one is there to pick me up, in actuality Lost in my heated fury ,pushed past my boundaries darkest degree As you can see, I'm not the person I used to be The darkness haunts me in my wildest dreams, it's hard to sleep They say god come's to the ones who believe Lost my job, a lot of my friends became full of deceit So why is the world crashing down on me Haven't seen my mom in four years stay trying to hold the tears Got in trouble a lot of fake friends disappeared Now im broke, only the real stay near The pain pushes through my brain like nova cane My Body feels numb to situation I can't discuss The son in my family that goes against the grain Trying to maintain ,myself but my heart is ignited, might combust So many people in this world, just lost my trust Chorus 2x