Paul Leavitt - Weathered lyrics

I felt unable I was lying on my side In the same clothes from the very last night I wanna pray that I'm doing everything right I saw my mom die for the very first time She was an angel, God took her from the sky And there's a million other people that I found Who cared more than I ever will I held that note out I grabbed my bag and I left through the door I let my hair grow Put these words on my skin, I cannot relate Would you believe in my songs If I gave them all to you? I can't find the strength in my voice To call you back and say that everything is bad without you And I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again I stayed in bed and we took so much that I couldn't even sleep I waited so long Though that wasn't even that bad I never had to be a part of the world And I've been making that a goal for reasons that I cannot explain Well I'm an optimist but only in a perfect world I think I'm too stained from all the negativity From all the people in my way Would you believe in my songs If I gave them all to you? I can find the strength in my voice To call you back and say that everything is bad without you And I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again I took a trip down south and felt the sun on my face And it made things okay for a second I drew a picture of my problems when I was going insane And I focused on the currents It's the funny thing about it I never seem to worry that every single current's not the same It's all about position, and where I choose to lay And god I am going away