Paul Laxer - The Aftermath lyrics

I had you on my mind In visions more refined The further back in time Some friends of friend's estate Home for the holidays The smell of conifer and mulled wine Seducer's calculus I feigned an accident Reached out and grazed your neck My god it's been so long I see you're moving on You're right, we're not dead yet We find an empty room More catching up to do And what is one more regret When I ask you what you want you flash a guarded look You taunt me with your eyes As you parse over the aftermath But in times like these my silver tongue Returns to me undying love I pine Until you give it up And turn out the light Then the morning takes The love away Leaving only ashtrays And broken bottles How I long to shake My own shoulder blades When I rise before you wake To avoid the trouble And when I leave you will owe me nothing When I leave it will all mean nothing