Paul Draper - Special/Blown It (Delete As Appropriate) lyrics

I've blown it in every single way Screwed every single chance that came You're a super star in waiting for the silver screen Then the pressure came Swept away in a tidal wave Could be all of you, still awake at noon Blew my chances in a tragic flurry, sweeping apathy Buy all my food from the B.P store when the night kicks in I'm turning my back on everyone I've blown everything I've ever done I've f**ed it up, shot my load Spewed onto the motorway shoulder I could have been somebody special I'm not such a tragic waste of space I could bring happiness to people Just one more greatest hits tour for the devotees The same old faces came They love their summer spectaculars By the grace of God could be up by noon And not a tragic waster but I can't stay focused for my apathy They could have bought me a brand new car and a house in France I've really blown it now Blew it all away on a whim Sat on my own for far too long Things could have been so different now Life looks so confusing through my window bay Just to see a face, I'm really pleased when the gas man comes Could be all of you still awake at noon Blew my chances in a tragic flurry of apathy All my food from a B.P store when the night kicks in I've really blown it now Blew it all away on a whim But I f**ed it up, shot my load Spewed onto the motorway shoulder I could have been somebody special