I don't see why i'm addicted to the life that i've been living Cus it has given, me a hard time for the longest time Ever since I was Nothing more than four foot five or something And ever since that time it's evolved around Fitting in with the people I wanted to be around But I found no reason I should stay around And play their games another day I payed my dues Collected cred from older dudes who I looked up to Makes me sick and nauseous Thinking of the things they made my shaddow do Put my moodTo the test with an attitude Never showed no signs of gratitude I was Mad at life so... My temper reached its boiling point Took me to the point of no return Id make you burn Some lessons learned the harder way Feel the pain I caused as I portray in a detailed way As I try my best to maintain my cool in a lenient way I almost drowned in a pool of alcohol I hauled some a** and I Had to pull my weight Through the open gates of the white walled clinic I saw my faults and I admitted To myself that I needed help, cus I went to far When Acting a fool quickly got old Should have stuck to script, cus I wasn't equipped To calculate my fate with the risk that I was taking REF I just wanted Something I can live for Something I can fight for Something I believe in I just want more Something I can fight for Something I can die for Something I can take in I just want more I dont know why im toying with the life that ive been given Cus it has taken driven Me a long way, just to get to home plate Staying up late just to calibrate My next maneuver you the judge But I dont know if no one does Really know how much it put the F in fright for me I woke up, chocked up, hold up Tell me, What has happened What went down, You was found Laying on the ground no one around 911 got a call, No time to stall Glad they didn't cus As I left They sayed It coulda been minutes I was unconscious, a god damn Menace Could have cost me all could have lost my attendance And I don't know if that would have ever been worth it tho The price I pay in the aftermath Is looking back And knowing that I'm here for a while, In need of a minute Something to say I need to admit it Whoever called it in, You should know I owe you Sad that I never had the chance to look it up And see who it was who called it in Id hook you up, with a big as hug Shown some love like you did that time When you made that call, you saved my life Let me sing for yours, Let me sing these words I made my choice and hope i find Something in time to fulfill dream Im Glad im here I got