Awake but not alive as I scrawl these words. All that is left, that I am, a rotting walking corpse. Enervate the machine that holds me down. I can't handle defeat one more f**ing time. One more attempt to rectify the inclined angles in my life. I made myself a prisoner in a pattern I despise. I despise. Point blank fire, for all you've done. There is hope in this bullet, freedom in this gun. I made myself a prisoner in this system I despise. All that's left of me is a hollow stare and hope that slowly dies. Retaliation. Enervate the machine that holds me down, retaliation on the structure that tore me down. As this repulsion escalates, I start to realize that I have to get rid of these chains that bind me. So this is my last attempt to rectify my life. Get back to who I once was. And break free. I hope I don't live to see tomorrow if it's the same as today. Again control has slipped out of my hands. I can't live life this way.