Paperboys - Change My Stars lyrics

I get the strangest ideas, get drunk Leave angels in tears turning flames into painful affairs Sonow I’m lying here draining beers I can’t explain it’s weird got me thinking damn maybe I’m scared Coz I’d like someone to listen to but I hate having to tell them I’m sorry for not missing you Feeling cold and this is difficult Guess love differs your periphial view sort of like sniffing glue It was cool I know you hoped for us Didn’t mind that I smoked so much I saw the signs, you opened up, gave me time And everything was fine till I f*cked up and broke your trust Buteven so you never showed disgust It’s like I find a surprise and all I wanted was to drown in her eyes And lay surrounded by the sound of the skies But I guss I never tried so for all of those lies I apologise “My intent was not to fail you all See I’m just trying to change my stars Got me locked at these crossroads thinking which way should I go Which way should I go Anticipating what the next day’s bringing Try to prepare with your heartbeat racing It’s kind of likewhen I’m writing my flows Thinking which way should I go Which wayshould I go” Guess I’ve proven to be a handful Coz it’s like every other day another scandal Had a career but now they saying that it’s cancelled Ain’t that a whole lot of sh** to be playing for some uncleared samples? Quite more than I can stand for But then again I kind of like your damn show coz my sh** went gold Another shipment sold and all the other kids enrolled Coz what they donow I did before And some of them did know Those who didn’t Now they heard it from you So you’re the fool bringing my words into school You’re just a tool i can use gaining success Now everyday is another I don’t give a f*ck-fest I just like the truth /there really ain’t that much left And I don’t see how me talking about my life can make you upset That’s too much stress you need to relax And look around maybe jesus is back Go find him Chourse Sometimes I wish that no one on this earth could stand me If I deserved to be loved I wouldn’t hurt my family Fill my body with d** while giving birth to panic It’s like I’m just another worthless addict sh**,I ain’t even working at it Though I know, nobody’s perfect I feel I’ve lost my right to ask for a purpose It seems I just make it worse and search beneath the surface And try to find some light up in this circus But I’m nervous all I see is the mistakes I made Cut me open like a razor blade And in these motherf*cking crazy days feel my faith uncovered Pray the doctors will save my brother Think about the promises people make each other But life interferes Got to do right by them that cared Ive been a burden for them to bear So I know I can’t end it here