Pagan Lorn - Collapsed lyrics

Used thoughts Second thoughts Compact thoughts No longer the one you were Become and play your role Who goes for the throne must go for the king This matter is not overdue Still no change to see in your self-absorption And the animal runs amuck Getting stronger I start taking pleasure in these thoughts But is it real or just a lie A need Demanding discipline Love of order accused In an inner-war The dependence and the selfishness strengthened But unacceptable My unsecureness makes it feel safe Any thought is a declaration of love Any anticipated joy On the outbreak The crushing firmness hardens A bit of pain A bit of overloaded And I live again Self-confidence of the undestroyable The power of the inferior winner is The might of the motor inside The secret in my head If it is too fast it does not matter Because the hole becomes bigger Any lie takes its revenge Any illusion is going to devour me One step too far Or maybe two steps behind Is it more than you have ever had Ever been Ever known A sense I do not know And I will never know Relax and drift above I am sure you will love the joke Please trust a man who would never lie The one you have pa**ed by with your innocence Your eyes you have open wide You will need to cry Smiles sounding between my words A child that dies to live like a gentleman A prison-guard A prisoner A sense I will never know And never give to you Finally you start drinking As you swallow you grow up Filling yourself with yours It is good to become yourself Push and restart Clear up your picture What hurts can be k**ed The meal gets your own taste You are prospering Enjoying every single step Every new refreshing breath Milking your life You feel the changes begin Is the secret the remorse afterwards I pay your price Anyway but I have to give more than my megalomania I am going to fail That is a part of the role Or is there less Than I can see No answers Will this eternal wandering end Will I live Or is this life No answers Through confrontation I will find a way And I will do so The animal inside The beast The maniac That is what it is for My victory is his d**h His existence to give me sense And to die on my birth So I will k** him!