Oshea - Alone vs Lonely lyrics

Verse 1} Bonds only lead to betrayal Every friend is just a future fail Keep on trynna love to no avail Fighting this depression on my tail Do not trust them, every one of them's for sale Like I f**ing ain't I'm just looking for escape Y'all n***as was looking for a scape-goat It goes to show that every smile I see is f**ing fake Stomping on my patience till it breaks How much do I gotta take motha f**a I ain't got no mother f**in' friends I'm sick of playing pretend With all these phony faces, I don't embrace em or bend Now they finna see me tripping I'm finished making amends hope this sh** offends Funny, n***as tried to f**ing burn 'im But they couldn't stand up to the greatest, f** the fake, intoxicated off of hatred and they wonder why I'm f**ing swerving Never hit em back, just swisher packets sorry momma I been f**in' burning Up {Hook} Just leave me alone (x2) Whole world treat me like I ain't sh** they be like f** You and yo Team They Be like f** You and yo life They be like f** You and yo Dreams I say f** that, I just throw it right back, I be screamin out f** you and yo team I be like f** You and yo life I be like f** You and you Dreams {Verse 2} People took advantage too long sh** I might just blow I ain't here to work it out, f** talking f** walking up the higher road Or living life in quiet mode till I explode Never needed n***as, I'd be happy if I die alone People say be grateful for another day, n***a f** life n***a f** you, I was living with the dust mites And people would only walk over talked over me Now they wonder how I got over, not sober I been stressing over n***as and it ain't worth sh**, stressing over n***as and it ain't worth sh** Stressing over b**hes and it ain't worth sh**, stressin over b**hes and it ain't worth sh** I been stressing over you and it wasn't worth sh** Stressing over you and you ain't worth sh** {Hook} {Lonely} {Verse 1} Can I tell you the truth People strike fear in my heart and it tears me apart All my pain I express to the booth Telling you I never wanna talk always acting nonchalant But I'm wishing I could yell it from the roof Cuz a Quiet Place just ain't enough Wood Grain Beats can't buy love And I can't find trust in a human so I keep mine shut Mind shuts any time you come around Lemme help you picture this Cinder block shoes to the ground hold me down to the ground Of a sea floor, feet forced to the bottom of my lonliness I'm hoping that I'm found 'fore I drown Can't reach out to the thousands around Why you gotta be the awkward kid in the back sh** I wish I knew Pissed off youth Looking at life through a fish eye view So I never can explain all the sh** I do Ain't even got a friend that I could call best Everyone I tried to get acquainted with is wishing that I would call less Then they have the nerve to pretend they're perturbed when I look all stressed I can tell you people never understood What it's like to feel stranded in a room full of people Then to have to fake a smile like it's all good Keep on saying y'all would do something if y'all could Well if you really give a damn, I don't really know who I am I don't really know my own fam, I just sit alone in my damn Little room, momma thinking what is wrong with this man I need a handle on life Give me a hand or a vice To fill in the void cuz my will's been destroyed I been silent so long and it's k**ing the boy You don't hear me though {Hook} You see I got a couple things, couple things I can't take to my grave stone But I never talk I refrain, I refrain so I guess I'll just stay lonely, stay lonely Man down, man up muh f**a Papa always told me stand down or stand up muh f**a Man down, man up muh f**a {Verse 2} Emerald eyes were all that I could find Now you done move those eyes to someone else f**ed me up when you had left this life of mine Heart discarded all the priceless times Switched to mister man, sh** hit the fan when you called that n***a papi I was dying A name that at a point in time was mine Could paint this out like I was in the right But I need to Need to admit that I missed when I shot for a heart all I got was the got was the dark it's unusual Time after time I would whine that you lied like my feelings where filling what's real is I used you The void in myself was too giant for you to Fill on your own so the moments that you flew From me defiled by denial and you knew sh** was a lose lose Look in those emerald eyes tell em lies such as "I'm cool being friends" so we blend like we used to Ever since we made amends it's unusual I'm of my mind tryna find common ground with the woman who infected my heart And pretending that I'm happy with whatever we are To be fair I tried to give you air and go it apart But What good's deleting numbers when you know it by heart, sheesh I let you slip, another opportunity, out of my grip Another sore regret when I see you online Cuz not too long ago I was holding those hips But we can't do this Naruto and Sasuke chase If I stay stuck on you my whole life then this all was a waste Close my eyes, all I see is your face If I loved me like I love you I'd be in better place {Bridge} I tried to smoke away The thoughts of you But I could hold it in Impossible {Hook} {Voice Mail}