Oilcolor - Weight of the Wind lyrics

I can feel the weight of the wind in my home town Cause ain't sh** changed since the last time I been around And I been feeling low, feeling slow, feeling run down I said "I been doing well," truth is I don't know now And I can hear the pain in the way you say my name The cold gaze in your eyes Tell me all the things that keep you up at night If you sleep forever then you'll never have to fight Where do I start I got a big ego and a small heart Rolling through with a bad attitude And a mother f**ing chip on my shoulder too I'm like damn, how did it get like this? I still hate my life, I'm still full of sh** And I got a thing for destruction Down all the pills, said "f** the instructions" I can make the things that I love die Ruin everything that's kept me alive Push away the people who stood by my side They ask me why I do it I don't know why I can make the things that I love die Ruin everything that's kept me alive Push away the people who stood by my side They ask me why I do it I don't know why