[Verse 1] Remember one time dog, this fiend owed the boss Put peanut bu*ter on her p**y, let his pits lick it off Back when I was living on Flanders Seen another dope fiend beat another with a hammer Remember at the park, seen a n***a at the payphone Got rocked in his dome, momma picked me up and ran home Was like f**ing seven years old When I first seen a fiend try to light a rock off the stove Damn near burned his top lip off, so my mind ticked off Desensitized to a lot of things, mind would drift off Wish it was what I seen on TV I snapped outta that, unc' beating on my auntie Gunshots outside was sorta like fireworks We know they ain't fireworks, it's December 21st Cold winter with a kerosene heater On the couch so cold can't take off your sneakers, and it's torture [Hook] Look in my mind and see the horrors All the sh** that I've seen, n***a it's torture [Verse 2] I feel like a prisoner of war Reacting sporadically to what the mind absorb Probably need a shrink, can't get a wink So I smoke a lot of kush and pop a Xanax to sleep Close my eyes, look up, fiend said 1 for 8 Can tell that I scared him by the look on my face Reached in my pocket served him nervous as a surgeon Can't believe where I'm at, 'posed be writing verses Heard a knock at the door, 'nother fiend wanted fo' Gave him what he came for, told him go to the sto' Let me get a box a box of Swishers, Faygo Cola Gave his a** another stone now guess what it's over He ain't come back, before I could look back I heard the wood on the door crack, and they yelling "Police!" With this work up in my jeans, man this a bad dream, and it's torture [Hook]