NYX - The Flood lyrics

[Nyx] Living is one of the most terrifyng things for me To hear the ones I love and care about say things like How happy I make them and how they see all these positive things within me Because I feel it's within human nature to hurt one another No matter how hard you try not to And I know, no matter what, I'll always end up hurting someone Because no one is just like you They all hurt people just by thinking you're failing in a different way than them And I know that doesn't make you a bad person but I don't ever wanna imagine hurting the people I care about just by being myself So it makes me think maybe I should just push you all away and cut all ties and admire from afar But you say that I'll just hurt worse And to be honest, I couldn't push you away even if I try So I'm sorry if... [OmenXIII] I have something to say, I pushed it back in my mind for so long, always biting my tongue Always running away, constantly, forever, like a pendulum swinging And I don't know who swung me this way but I hate this This feeling of emptiness, I could be just like you But I'd rather die than live a long life without meeting Was I born to fail in life? Or was I just born to try? Don't try to tell me what to believe when you believe in the things that make you so weak Because even when I open my eyes, everything's black, everything's empty To the world, put this chip on my shoulder that I chose to let myself 'cause of the way that I see things I don't know, I don't care because it doesn't matter At the end of the day, as much as I hate to admit it I just wanna smile, I just want love