Nugatory Hope - Escape lyrics

Bolstering my reserve This unrelenting, stinging hurt It has a greedy spiteful thirst Consuming all, sparing nothing When everything is said and done There's no real place that I can run With a bullet and a gun I wonder why I even try I keep the fury inside Where hate and envy reside I'm on the verge of egocide There's no hope, just give it up Please rid me of these sparring voices All my life, never offered choices I don't want to be appointed To live this life, so dark and trite There's not much time to escape This cursed place that has it for me There is no way to escape This scalding spite and true self loathing Everything that made me was stripped I'm so f**ing lost and lonely I don't want to see the end, give me truth instead My heroes are all dead In need of a light, I slowly lose the fight I can't escape this hell I'm broken, dazed, confused, and losing all control This gaping hole in my morale started as subliminally as can be It then fissured open with intent to k** my love for everyone and everything I vied and tried for something more, but every time I ended up with my face in the dirt There's no escape, there's no repent Everyone's just bent to see me hurt I don't want to see the end, give me truth instead My heroes are all dead In need of a light, I slowly lose the fight I can't escape this hell Please alleviate the pain I feel By relegating myself, I opened up a seal When I realized that the pain's the only thing that's real I let it take over and control me as I kneeled Dragged and beaten to the point of senselessness These broken thoughts render me abuzz with restlessness I can't get out, so I just gave up hope I can't escape this hell