Novel - Self Medicating lyrics

[Verse 1] I'm seating here staring at the wheel Eyes reder than the break lights Parked with the keys in the ignition But I'm drunk so I can't drive, yeah You can tell by the speech there was something in the water Plus I'm smoking on them Leaves same colour as the dress that I bought her [Hook] I'm sorry, She's Sorry Everybody's got some f**ed up apologies Thank you mama, for tryna raise me Though I wish I wasn't alive somedays No Palm trees, no corn greens Just a young corn underneath this concrete Its your fault, We could have had it all So tonight I'm gonn' ball 'till I fall But uhm [Hook] I'm not addicted to d** I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm not a victim of love Everyone's jus' hatin', they jus' hatin' yeah, yeah You said I'm missing something beautiful I jus' wanna see the same things that you saw But uhm I'm not addicted to d** I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah [Verse 2] I'm Puffing lye on a saturday night Thinkin' I'm losing my religion The next morning hung over At the sunday service qouting scriptures, yeah I know I'm not afraid of dying But maybe I'm afraid of living Cause life ain't promised to us all But I know d**h is given [Hook] He is sorry, she is sorry Everybody's got some f**ed up apologies Thank you mama, for tryna raise me Though I wish I wasn't alive most days No Palm trees, no corn greens Just a young corn buried in the concrete Its your fault, We could have had it all So tonight I'm gonn' ball 'till I fall But uhm [Hook] I'm not addicted to d** I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm not a victim of love Everyone's jus' hatin', they jus' hatin' yeah, yeah You said I'm missing something beautiful I jus' wanna see the same things that you saw But uhm I'm not addicted to d** I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah I'm just self medicating, medicating Yeah [Instrumentals] [Hook]