Nosound - Hope For The Future lyrics

I'm just tired of staying here Oppressed by time going by and growing old I'm just not smiling since too much time Waiting to leave or to die And joy is gone weeping away cracks of time All this pain I embrace inside Going up the river of time I'm waiting to become a child And I'll hold on in this dark noisy room And I'll clean up this f**ed mind There's just too much darkness in my disease Looking for happiness into the falling leaves I would smash this starkness with the hope for the future Encountering me in a sunny day "Hello how're you?" I would say All me shining inside Like when I was a boy