Nosound - Constant Contrast lyrics

Every morning my self destruction grows Days and days asleep To change the script of this show The constant contrast too deep Facing the loss from that day, 19 years ago Small workers inside and around Destroying and building again On more solid ground I'm leaving you now Departing from here To avoid admitting that pain Is writing and singing your name I lived a different world A different life Not me Dreaming every day Every night How happy I could be I heard my ears blown away The music louder than silence in me I tried to balance accounts of my life But a plain blank sheet is all that remained It's the obsession for desperate hope For something I couldn't cope I still hit my head against the wall 'cause I'm so scared to lose your love But I'm leaving you now Departing from here To avoid admitting that pain Is writing and singing your name