Nohidea - Everything is Backwards lyrics

[Intro] All the time I spent on this should have gone straight out to you Why the hell I even try, why'd I fall in love with you Fall in love with you Fall in love Fall in love Fall in love with you [Verse] You'll never know me like I know myself But then again I never knew myself I stumbled onto banisters to drink from off a higher shelf Cymbals ringing hit it with my head I think I need your help I'm all alone eating off this three-piece chicken meal High enough to think i'm in a weed leaf picking fields If everything was backwards then maybe we'd be kicking still If I roll this backwoods would I still even f**ing feel Who are you tell me what's been in my bones You think you seeing through me, I'm just trynna hold my own See the rain drops falling on my front porch poem You ask if i'm really so happy what have my songs shown And I think maybe you're right, I've been counting off the calendars Measuring success and all your love with sh**ty calipers The latter quantifiable like firing off calibers No global isometric values measure up to having her And sometimes it might seem I don't care too much But i'm fighting inside with the feelings you brush When your hair falls and lips part i'm lost in the rush A will made of iron still broken by rust Complacency my biggest f**ing enemy Like really what's the difference between happiness and entropy Enveloping myself in all the chaos God has sent for me I tried so hard to finish this but i'm lacking the energy